Table of Contents

Table of Contents


Chapter 1: Mom and Dad
Armenia to Fresno to Berkeley . . . Compassionate, and Determined

Chapter 2: One Nation Under God - A '50s Boyhood 
     Sports . . . My Sisters . . . School . . . Froggy the Gremlin . . . One Nation Under     
     God . . . Traffic Boy . . . I Liked Ike . . . "Have You No Decency?" . . . Becoming
     Aware of Segregation . . . Family Vacations . . . The Movies . . . The Baseball Hat

Chapter 3: The World Begins to Open 
     Testing . . . Tournament of Champions . . . Cutting Up . . . Arbitrary Authority . . .
     Live Oak Park . . . White Port and Lemon Juice . . . James Dean Generation . . .
     Umpire . . . Marques Haynes Style . . . First Love . . . Teacher's Trial

Chapter 4: High School
     Orientation . . . "You Don't Know How Lucky You Are!" . . . Segregation Within
     Integration . . . Clarence, Lonnie–and Larger Forces . . . Basketball, Football–
     and Larger Forces . . . Dating - and Larger Forces . . . Street Corner Symphonies
     . . . Family Clashes . . . Plato in the Park . . . Spring Thaw . . . Getting Free of
     Religion . . . Anne Frank . . . Football . . . Keeping the "Rep" . . . Wild Times and
     Hairy Situations . . . "He Walks in the Classroom, Cool and Slow". . ."A Little Guy,
     Brimming With Confidence" . . . The Truck Barn and the Office . . . Camping in
     Yosemite, and Then

Chapter 5: Life Interrupted
     "Uh Oh, That's Not Good"–Hospitalized . . . Friends . . . Re-Thinking . . . "And No
     Birds Sing" . . . "Now Give Me My Milkshake!" . . . Most Courageous Athlete–Until
     . . .Coaching . . . Back to Cal and Engaged in the World . . . The Cuban Missile 
     Crisis: World in the Balance . . . A Scientific Approach . . . Turning the Corner

Chapter 6: "Your Sons and Your Daughters . . . "
     Opening Up . . . Torn by Kennedy and the Democrats . . . Into the Student Life . . .
     Dylan and "Beatlemania" . . . New People, New Influences . . . Malcolm X . . .
     Straddling Two Worlds . . . The Free Speech Movement . . . Mario Savio . . . The
     Assassination of Malcolm X . . . Deciding About Vietnam . . . Getting In Deeper

Chapter 7: " . . . Are Beyond Your Command"
     Ramparts . . . Getting with Eldridge, Huey and Bobby . . . The Conservative
     Communist Party, USA . . . Family Conflicts . . . Meeting–and Rejecting–PL . . .
     Running for Office . . . The Summer of Love . . . Stop the Draft Week - "From    
     Protest to Resistance" . . . New Politics and Old . . . Restless Farewell . . . "The
     Baddest Motherfucker on the Planet Earth"

Chapter 8: Getting Down with Revolution
     The Panthers in Action . . . Moving to Richmond . . . The First Political Steps . . .
     The Working Class: Practice and Theory . . . Peace and Freedom . . . The Flavor of
     the Times . . . "Rocking" Dow Chemical . . .Free Huey!

Chapter 9: Becoming a Communist
     Leibel Bergman . . . Red Papers 1 and the Formation of the Revolutionary Union
     . . . The Struggle in SDS . . . Weatherman . . . People's Park . . . Confronting the  
     Implications . . . Richmond Oil Strike–And Taking Revolution to the Working
     Class . . . The Revolution Comes to Richmond . . . Learning from the Proletariat–
     Deep Bonds

Chapter 10: Taking Responsibility
     The Panthers–Differences Develop . . . The RU Goes National . . . On The Road
     . . . Cuba, Vietnam, and the Soviet Union . . . Striking Out Boldly . . . Nationalism
     and Marxism . . . Anarchism and Marxism . . . Dogmatism and Marxism . . .
     Women's Liberation and Proletarian Revolution . . . Going Forward

Chapter 11: Revolution or Adventurism?
     The Questions Are Posed . . . The Split in the Panthers . . . Settling the
     Questions . . . Taking on Baggage from the International Communist Movement
     . . . Reviving Revolutionary Traditions

Chapter 12: Going to China
     Seizing an Opening . . . Struggle in the Chinese Leadership . . . Transformations–
     Seeing a New Society . . . Lin Biao and the Complexities of the Struggle . . . A
     Lesson . . . Running Into Huey . . . Learning an Important Lesson

Chapter 13: Consolidating the Revolutionary Union
     Moving to Chicago . . . Maywood . . . Fred Hampton's Legacy . . . The RU's Early
     Practice . . . Red Papers 5 . . . The Guardian Forums . . . Agonizing Over
     McGovern . . . Nixon and Watergate: "Throw the Bum Out!"

Chapter 14: Unity, Struggle . . . and Principle
     The National Liaison Committee . . . Who Should Represent? . . . No Guarantees
     Against Selling Out . . . The Struggle Sharpens Up . . . Bundism or Marxism? . . .
     The Night of the Lepus . . . Deepening the Struggle Against Narrow Nationalism
     . . . On the Real

Chapter 15: Building the Party
     Going on Tour . . . The RU and the Mass Struggle . . . In the Mines . . . "Are You
     Still Not Drinking Coke?" . . . "Time Has Come Today"

Chapter 16: Exposing the Soviets, Struggling with the Chinese
     The Soviet Union: Flawed Socialism or State Capitalism? . . . Revisionism in Power
     Equals Capitalist Restoration . . . Return to China: Raising Questions . . . And
     Getting No Answers . . . Shooting Hoops, and Hold the Sea Slugs . . . Comrade
     Chin

Chapter 17: Founding the Party - A High Point . . . and a Low One
     Two Opposed Views, Two Opposed Styles . . . Taking a Wrong Turn . . . Country
     Music . . . The "Saving Grace" . . . Eldridge Finds Jesus

Chapter 18: Revolutionary Work in a Non-Revolutionary Situation
     A Target of Surveillance . . . Struggling For a Revolutionary Orientation . . . Gutter
     Tactics . . . Taking On the Bicentennial . . . Vietnam Vets, and VVAW . . . Debating
     the Question of War and Revolution

Chapter 19: "Bitter Sacrifice Strengthens Bold Resolve" - Mao
     The Death of Mao Tsetung . . . A Division in the Leadership . . . Unfolding the
     Struggle . . . "Everything Seems Very Stable" . . . Focusing on the Cardinal
     Questions . . . Coming to Grips

Chapter 20: Split!
     Revolutionaries are Revolutionaries, And Must Be Supported . . . Showdown . . .
     The Real Deal . . . Pretending Unity, Preparing to Split . . . What If? . . .
     Deepening and Broadening . . . The Mao Memorials . . . Tell the Truth

Chapter 21: "A Fitting Welcome" for Deng Xiaoping
     Confronting Deng . . . Pranking the Parrots . . . The Battle in the Legal Arena . . .
     My Family Grows Closer . . . The Preliminary Railroad

Chapter 22: Re-Evaluation . . . and Leaping Forward
     Interrogating Ourselves . . . Upholding Mao, Rediscovering Lenin . . .
     Revolutionary Defeatism vs. Reformist Patriotism . . . Preparing for "Rare
     Moments" . . . Tribune of the People . . . Revolutionary May 1st, 1980 . . . Keeping
     an Open Ear . . . Boston Busing

Chapter 23: Stop the Railroad!
     Turning D.C. Upside Down . . . Defending and Popularizing Revolutionary
     Leadership . . . Confronting My–and Our–Responsibility . . . Cult of the
     Personality . . . A Broad Defense . . . Outrage in Carolina . . . The Political
     Context: Political Shocks, from Teheran to Greensboro . . . "It's Not Our
     Embassy!" . . . Uniting Broadly, On the Basis of Principle

Chapter 24: Under Attack
     Contending in the Media . . . Tactical Retreat, Mounting Attacks . . . Help from the
     People . . . Damián García

Chapter 25: Exile
     Learning from the Experience of Lenny Bruce . . . A Tactical Maneuver, Not a
     Strategic Retreat . . . Applying for Refugee Status . . . Adjusting to Exile . . .
     Getting into the Scene . . . French Basketball, "The Deerhunter," and Doo-Wop
     . . . Leading from Exile . . . Conquer the World! . . . War Clouds . . . Learning to
     More Deeply Hate Imperialism

Chapter 26: In Exile . . . And Leading Through Line
     Democracy: Can't We Do Better Than That? . . . The "Crisis" of Marxism, the Rise
     of Religion . . . Dictatorship, Democracy, Communism–Dissent . . . Learning from
     Others . . . Madison, Jefferson, and Stalin . . . The Outcome of the Charges and
     the Refugee Status

Chapter 27: Perseverance, and Inspiration
     The Hardship of Exile . . . "Money Can Make Friendship End" . . . Disappointment,
     Danger and Going Forward . . . Being Sustained . . . Perseverance, and
     Inspiration

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