Table of Contents
Table of Contents
Chapter 1: Mom and Dad
Armenia to Fresno to Berkeley . . . Compassionate, and Determined
Chapter 2: One Nation Under God - A '50s Boyhood
Sports . . . My Sisters . . . School . . . Froggy the Gremlin . . . One Nation Under
God . . . Traffic Boy . . . I Liked Ike . . . "Have You No Decency?" . . . Becoming
Aware of Segregation . . . Family Vacations . . . The Movies . . . The Baseball Hat
Chapter 3: The World Begins to Open
Testing . . . Tournament of Champions . . . Cutting Up . . . Arbitrary Authority . . .
Live Oak Park . . . White Port and Lemon Juice . . . James Dean Generation . . .
Umpire . . . Marques Haynes Style . . . First Love . . . Teacher's Trial
Chapter 4: High School
Orientation . . . "You Don't Know How Lucky You Are!" . . . Segregation Within
Integration . . . Clarence, Lonnie–and Larger Forces . . . Basketball, Football–
and Larger Forces . . . Dating - and Larger Forces . . . Street Corner Symphonies
. . . Family Clashes . . . Plato in the Park . . . Spring Thaw . . . Getting Free of
Religion . . . Anne Frank . . . Football . . . Keeping the "Rep" . . . Wild Times and
Hairy Situations . . . "He Walks in the Classroom, Cool and Slow". . ."A Little Guy,
Brimming With Confidence" . . . The Truck Barn and the Office . . . Camping in
Yosemite, and Then
Chapter 5: Life Interrupted
"Uh Oh, That's Not Good"–Hospitalized . . . Friends . . . Re-Thinking . . . "And No
Birds Sing" . . . "Now Give Me My Milkshake!" . . . Most Courageous Athlete–Until
. . .Coaching . . . Back to Cal and Engaged in the World . . . The Cuban Missile
Crisis: World in the Balance . . . A Scientific Approach . . . Turning the Corner
Chapter 6: "Your Sons and Your Daughters . . . "
Opening Up . . . Torn by Kennedy and the Democrats . . . Into the Student Life . . .
Dylan and "Beatlemania" . . . New People, New Influences . . . Malcolm X . . .
Straddling Two Worlds . . . The Free Speech Movement . . . Mario Savio . . . The
Assassination of Malcolm X . . . Deciding About Vietnam . . . Getting In Deeper
Chapter 7: " . . . Are Beyond Your Command"
Ramparts . . . Getting with Eldridge, Huey and Bobby . . . The Conservative
Communist Party, USA . . . Family Conflicts . . . Meeting–and Rejecting–PL . . .
Running for Office . . . The Summer of Love . . . Stop the Draft Week - "From
Protest to Resistance" . . . New Politics and Old . . . Restless Farewell . . . "The
Baddest Motherfucker on the Planet Earth"
Chapter 8: Getting Down with Revolution
The Panthers in Action . . . Moving to Richmond . . . The First Political Steps . . .
The Working Class: Practice and Theory . . . Peace and Freedom . . . The Flavor of
the Times . . . "Rocking" Dow Chemical . . .Free Huey!
Chapter 9: Becoming a Communist
Leibel Bergman . . . Red Papers 1 and the Formation of the Revolutionary Union
. . . The Struggle in SDS . . . Weatherman . . . People's Park . . . Confronting the
Implications . . . Richmond Oil Strike–And Taking Revolution to the Working
Class . . . The Revolution Comes to Richmond . . . Learning from the Proletariat–
Deep Bonds
Chapter 10: Taking Responsibility
The Panthers–Differences Develop . . . The RU Goes National . . . On The Road
. . . Cuba, Vietnam, and the Soviet Union . . . Striking Out Boldly . . . Nationalism
and Marxism . . . Anarchism and Marxism . . . Dogmatism and Marxism . . .
Women's Liberation and Proletarian Revolution . . . Going Forward
Chapter 11: Revolution or Adventurism?
The Questions Are Posed . . . The Split in the Panthers . . . Settling the
Questions . . . Taking on Baggage from the International Communist Movement
. . . Reviving Revolutionary Traditions
Chapter 12: Going to China
Seizing an Opening . . . Struggle in the Chinese Leadership . . . Transformations–
Seeing a New Society . . . Lin Biao and the Complexities of the Struggle . . . A
Lesson . . . Running Into Huey . . . Learning an Important Lesson
Chapter 13: Consolidating the Revolutionary Union
Moving to Chicago . . . Maywood . . . Fred Hampton's Legacy . . . The RU's Early
Practice . . . Red Papers 5 . . . The Guardian Forums . . . Agonizing Over
McGovern . . . Nixon and Watergate: "Throw the Bum Out!"
Chapter 14: Unity, Struggle . . . and Principle
The National Liaison Committee . . . Who Should Represent? . . . No Guarantees
Against Selling Out . . . The Struggle Sharpens Up . . . Bundism or Marxism? . . .
The Night of the Lepus . . . Deepening the Struggle Against Narrow Nationalism
. . . On the Real
Chapter 15: Building the Party
Going on Tour . . . The RU and the Mass Struggle . . . In the Mines . . . "Are You
Still Not Drinking Coke?" . . . "Time Has Come Today"
Chapter 16: Exposing the Soviets, Struggling with the Chinese
The Soviet Union: Flawed Socialism or State Capitalism? . . . Revisionism in Power
Equals Capitalist Restoration . . . Return to China: Raising Questions . . . And
Getting No Answers . . . Shooting Hoops, and Hold the Sea Slugs . . . Comrade
Chin
Chapter 17: Founding the Party - A High Point . . . and a Low One
Two Opposed Views, Two Opposed Styles . . . Taking a Wrong Turn . . . Country
Music . . . The "Saving Grace" . . . Eldridge Finds Jesus
Chapter 18: Revolutionary Work in a Non-Revolutionary Situation
A Target of Surveillance . . . Struggling For a Revolutionary Orientation . . . Gutter
Tactics . . . Taking On the Bicentennial . . . Vietnam Vets, and VVAW . . . Debating
the Question of War and Revolution
Chapter 19: "Bitter Sacrifice Strengthens Bold Resolve" - Mao
The Death of Mao Tsetung . . . A Division in the Leadership . . . Unfolding the
Struggle . . . "Everything Seems Very Stable" . . . Focusing on the Cardinal
Questions . . . Coming to Grips
Chapter 20: Split!
Revolutionaries are Revolutionaries, And Must Be Supported . . . Showdown . . .
The Real Deal . . . Pretending Unity, Preparing to Split . . . What If? . . .
Deepening and Broadening . . . The Mao Memorials . . . Tell the Truth
Chapter 21: "A Fitting Welcome" for Deng Xiaoping
Confronting Deng . . . Pranking the Parrots . . . The Battle in the Legal Arena . . .
My Family Grows Closer . . . The Preliminary Railroad
Chapter 22: Re-Evaluation . . . and Leaping Forward
Interrogating Ourselves . . . Upholding Mao, Rediscovering Lenin . . .
Revolutionary Defeatism vs. Reformist Patriotism . . . Preparing for "Rare
Moments" . . . Tribune of the People . . . Revolutionary May 1st, 1980 . . . Keeping
an Open Ear . . . Boston Busing
Chapter 23: Stop the Railroad!
Turning D.C. Upside Down . . . Defending and Popularizing Revolutionary
Leadership . . . Confronting My–and Our–Responsibility . . . Cult of the
Personality . . . A Broad Defense . . . Outrage in Carolina . . . The Political
Context: Political Shocks, from Teheran to Greensboro . . . "It's Not Our
Embassy!" . . . Uniting Broadly, On the Basis of Principle
Chapter 24: Under Attack
Contending in the Media . . . Tactical Retreat, Mounting Attacks . . . Help from the
People . . . Damián García
Chapter 25: Exile
Learning from the Experience of Lenny Bruce . . . A Tactical Maneuver, Not a
Strategic Retreat . . . Applying for Refugee Status . . . Adjusting to Exile . . .
Getting into the Scene . . . French Basketball, "The Deerhunter," and Doo-Wop
. . . Leading from Exile . . . Conquer the World! . . . War Clouds . . . Learning to
More Deeply Hate Imperialism
Chapter 26: In Exile . . . And Leading Through Line
Democracy: Can't We Do Better Than That? . . . The "Crisis" of Marxism, the Rise
of Religion . . . Dictatorship, Democracy, Communism–Dissent . . . Learning from
Others . . . Madison, Jefferson, and Stalin . . . The Outcome of the Charges and
the Refugee Status
Chapter 27: Perseverance, and Inspiration
The Hardship of Exile . . . "Money Can Make Friendship End" . . . Disappointment,
Danger and Going Forward . . . Being Sustained . . . Perseverance, and
Inspiration